The fact that a vampire being back to his old—uh, self again after having been turned into a puppet is considered normal just speaks volumes, though, doesn’t it? Sometimes, I wonder what we’ve gotten ourselves into with taking over this firm. I mean, sure, most of my professors from UCLA would kill to have the kind of lab I’m currently working in and access to the information I do, and we have been able to put some of our resources to use for some good, but there are times where it seems like we might have made the wrong decision agreeing to this, like there’s something really bad rumbling where we can’t see it. Like when Charles comes back, all raring to go after acting really strangely – who knows what the Senior Partners really had done to him. I’d like to know, but I can’t exactly just open him up and study his brain, and he didn’t take too well to my request for a biopsy back a few months ago.
So, yeah, things are back to normal around here. For the time being anyway. Wesley’s running some checks on the existence of some kind of demon bug nest for Angel – apparently Spike heard something about it out on the street. Charles is wrapping up some legal stuff from our showdown with the Smile Time puppets with Lorne’s help. And I’m here, working on a little quantum mirror experiment. This isn’t anything like you see in those Science Fiction shows, doorways to other universes and stuff like that. I’m looking at the reflective properties of atoms, how to duplicate them, that sort of thing. Right now, I’m working on the set-up. Hopefully, I’ll be able to run a few studies later in the week.
Although not if Knox keeps dropping things.
He just nearly cracked one of the mirrors. I swear he’s been more clumsy than usual lately. Actually, I’ve never known him to be clumsy before. I hope this doesn’t have anything to do with me turning him down because that’s really somewhere I don’t want to go again. I realized the mistake – make that mistakes – I was making and fixed it. I should have listened to my heart a long time ago regarding Wes.
Not that now is the time to get into a psychological breakdown about me and my feelings for someone I recently realized I’ve loved for quite a while now. If I want that, I’ll go to the firm shrink though I’d probably be better off going to Lorne to talk about this sort of thing. With him, at least I’ll know that I’m getting the truth and that the information won’t possibly be going back to the Senior Partners. Anyway, suffice it to say, denial and avoidance are not good things, and Wesley looks really, really cute when he’s confused.
Plus I love the way he kisses. I think we spent the entire afternoon after the Smile Time incident making out on his sofa before falling asleep in each other's arms, exhausted from staying up the whole night before. That was so nice...
Where was I? Oh, yeah. Right. Experiment. Quantum mirrors.
Man, I’m so going to kill Knox if he keeps messing things up.